video; backdated like whoa to right after the AU virus

[omnomsgods]

[ It's Utsuho and she looks... upset. Really upset. She's somewhere in the fires of Former Hell. Sorrowful. Alone. Empty. Her namesake, in other words. It's fitting for a hell raven. It seems she had been about to access the community to ask something (when does she not ask for something or other?), but her voice left her as she thought back to the virus. Eventually, however, she speaks:] Ah... d-did anyone see someone from their past during that... that virus? [ A choked sob. ] Someone who was supposed to be dead...?

[ She rubs her eyes but doesn't dare to look up at the camera in such a sorrowful state. ] Someone w-who... who you didn't realize was important to you until they're gone?! [ Another sob, and the feed cuts. ]

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[spiritually]

[ Even if the last couple of times they'd spoken, things had been bad.. He doesn't really answer the question, but.. ]

Do you need anything?

Permavid;

[omnomsgods]

I need... I need to get away! I'm dangerous and I can hurt others and-- and.... [ Just sobbing rn. ]

ditto

[spiritually]

Do you have a worldhop?

[ Not the best idea Natsume's ever had, but there's plenty of wide open space around where he lives, so.. ]

[omnomsgods]

[ She looks up, uncertain. ] I... do. I mean, I know how to. [ She sniffs, and shakes her head. ] But that's just it-- I can't just go to another world. You could get hurt. I don't know how long I can not destroy things or make stars, or...

[spiritually]

[ That kind of destruction.. he doesn't want to bring that to his world, but he wants to help her. He really does. ]

Do you want me to come over? If I can?

permavid

[windgodgirl]

[she's not quite sure what to say, for once. the whole virus was... interesting. being human. with a slower mind process, with human values. returning to reality was almost like a violent shock. but really, Aya prefers being a Tengu.]

... Who was it, Okuu?

Permavid;

[omnomsgods]

Y-you were right...! I hurt others that I care about. And it could happen again!

[windgodgirl]

[tch, it's like those human emotions are still lingering. she shouldn't feel this sort of concern for the hell raven. how unprofessional.]

And that's why you must learn to better control yourself. You can learn.

[omnomsgods]

I... I thought I can. [ She should have already been defeated by now, been given someone powerful to guide her and give her purpose. But time is still for her, and she doesn't have that direction or control.

And now? It's taken the death (or who she thinks may have died) of one other for her to realize that she's really just a young hell raven with an uncontrollable power, only buffered by her 'emptiness'. ] But I don't know what to do... except...

[windgodgirl]

Except...?

video;

[selfished]

[ .. Huh? Isn't this the person who bragged so much about her power before.. and now she's like this? Sure, Kyouko knows people can hide themselves behind strong fronts - it's what she does - but it's still enough of a change to make her pause and stare before she actually moves to reply. ]

Thinking 'bout it doesn't matter now, right? It's all over again.

Permavid;

[omnomsgods]

B...but I'll never see them again! And it's my fault. And it could happen to others!

[selfished]

So.. what? You're just gonna sit there and feel sorry for yourself? That's not gonna help you or anyone else either, y'know.

[omnomsgods]

C-can't I feel sorry for myself, at least once? No one else will. Stars have to be alone...

[selfished]

Why'd ya just wanna sit there and feel sorry for yourself? The only thing you can do is just keep going ahead even if you can't do anything 'bout it!

video;

[tunics]

Okuu..... [he feels so bad for her, for his friend.]

What happened exactly?

Permavid;

[omnomsgods]

I... I saw someone that I thought was dead...! And during the virus, h-he was still nice and I don't understand and it's all my f-fault...

[tunics]

It's not your fault.

Don't think it's your fault because it's not.

[omnomsgods]

I... [ She clutches her chest, or rather, the eye that's embedded in it. ] No, I did it. And I was proud of it, too!

[tunics]

It wasn't you! [he shakes his head.] I know what you're like, you're kind and fun to be around...!

You just weren't yourself for a while there! It's not your fault!

[Voice]

[precursorstone_gun_nest]

... I don't think the community brings people back to life, no. Not often, anyway.

[Dammit Okuu stop doing this. You tried to kill him, you're not supposed to make his heart hurt like that.]

I guess you're talking about me, aren't you.

((OOC: Oh god I completely missed this, and after we talked about it on plurk too >.> ))

Permavid;

[omnomsgods]

[ Someone had already mentioned that he had been alive, so when he appears on screen, most of her tears have dried, but her eyes are still puffy and red. ] J...Jak.


[ ooc: np. i should have linked you! ]

[Ditto]

[precursorstone_gun_nest]

... Hey, Utsuho. Feeling better?

[Dammit, he can't think of her as a bad guy when she does that.]

[omnomsgods]

You're... alive...! [ She sobs this out. ]

[precursorstone_gun_nest]

... Yeah, I am.

[He really wishes he was better at this whole 'comforting' thing.]